Happy New Year!

I recently turned the ripe young age of 37.

For you obnoxious youngens who have issues with growing older, that is STILL considered young. Your age does not factor into how old you feel, behave or think. In fact, most people would say I have the mindset and sense of humor of a teenage boy lol! I cannot help my mind stays in the gutta 24/7/365 (or in this year’s case 366).

And while I do not have issues with my age as a number, I do indeed have issues with the impending dreaded number that is now three years in front of me.

It never fails. Every New Year since the age of 35, I have had these cry myself to sleep moments where I question my every existence. I wonder if and when I’ll finally get off my lazy ass and do something more than what I am doing currently.

I wonder if I’ll have that house with the dream kitchen I’ve been pinning so furiously about.

I wonder if my daughter will seek me out.

I wonder if I’ll have another child or two. twins or triplets would be great God so i only have to be pregnant once.. thaaaaaanks.

I wonder if I’ll land that dream job I’ve always dreamed of and/or talked about. Sports Illustrated I’m talking to you!

So much pondering yet little to no action behind my endless day dreaming.

This New Year I am not making any resolutions as I don’t usually make good on them in the first place. This year I think I’m just going to take each and every day one at a time. I don’t want to plan my life out anymore. Partly because I continuously set myself up for failure and disappointment. Partly because I don’t know what I want to do with my life anymore.

All I DO know is that life is too short and I feel that my life is wasting away by doing nothing with it. I know how utterly depressing of me to say but I’m in that kind of mood right now.

Anyway… thank you again for following me on this journey called life. I promise to one day get better at this blogging thing!

 

Thanks for reading…

 

the southern yankee

 

Happy New Year!!!

/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/5e7/14614412/files/2015/01/img_2278.jpg

It’s a new day and a New Year!

Every year I say I’m going to make a resolution or two but let’s be honest, how many people really make good on their resolutions? Not I said the fly. Or me said the flee! So I’m not. I’m not going to waste my time or yours telling you about the resolutions that I’ll more than likely break in a month.

What I will say is this: I’m going to try harder. Not at any one given thing or aspect of my life but just in general.

I’ve learned over the last year, it isn’t about winning the war but getting through the battle. I also learned I have to learn when a battle is worth the impending war. Meaning not every battle is meant for me to fight. Sometimes I just need to let go and let God. but y’all know I’m stubborn tho right?!

Which means I have to learn that I can’t control everything. I can’t have the mentality of “it’s my way or the fucking highway!” I just can’t anymore. The more I try to control every situation the bigger the possibility of me getting my little feelings hurt. I’ll also lose sight of what matters most and honestly I can’t afford to lose that viewpoint.

So here’s to the New Year! Thank you again and in advance for falling me on this crazy foul mouthed journey! Hope you all had a safe and wonderful New Year’s Eve and a great first day of 2015.

Thanks for reading…

The Southern Yankee